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God can bring comfort.
I learned that lesson during a season of health challenges but that doesn’t mean that I haven’t experienced other seasons where I was totally freaked out at how my life was going.
I mean, can I tell the truth? Knowing God was with me intellectually often times doesn’t stop me from having major freakout.
But Jesus knows…
The longer I walk with Him, the more I trust He has me in the palm of His hands even when the road isn’t easy. You may have found your way to my blog after reading my devotional post from Proverbs 31 ministries and you read about the scare my husband gave me. Maybe you subscribe to my email newsletter and like hearing from me regularly because you consider yourself to be a friend.
In either case, I’d love to share some beautiful artwork with you to remind you that Jesus knows about where you are and what you are going through. And because I want to personally encourage you, I will also give away a copy of my new book, She’s Still There to someone who leaves a comment in the post below.
When hard times come…
If you are like me, when hard times come, I am tempted to think that God doesn’t see me or that he’s forgotten about me. I think that I don’t matter much to Him at all. Sometimes I even think He’s playing favorites with His kids. But because I’ve had more than my share of hard in this life, I’ve learned that He does see me. He does care. And He is always with me.
I’ve learned that life isn’t always easy but I owe it to myself and to the God who created me to steward my life well.
Appreciating my life is one way I have learned to do that — appreciating the life I have even while I work for the life I want. Praying and asking God for direction and next steps is another.
And I’ve come to appreciate the parts of life that make me smile and the parts of life that make me cry. Through every mountain and valley, I get to know more about the God I serve and how He works in me.
What happens when you need comfort in your life?
How do you handle the hard times when they come? Have you learned to trust God embracing the highs and the lows or are the lows in your life completely unnerving you and causing you to struggle in your faith? I’d love to hear from you. Be sure to leave a comment sharing how God has been a comfort to you or why it is hard to believe He is with you. There is no right or wrong answer here. I love honesty and I’d love to hear more from you about your story.
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Listen I know about hard and unexpected life challenges — some self-inflicted and others not-so-much.
I’d fought for my life and won — or so I thought. Teenaged-turned-twenty-something parent, I’d made it through school. On the day I graduated from college, I remember thinking that I’d accomplished something great but simultaneously feeling unsure that I was headed in the right direction. I’d done my best, but realized shortly after receiving my degree that doing your best doesn’t always mean that you end up in the best place.
I was overwhelmed with the idea that I’d worked so hard and had maybe still missed the mark.
I needed God’s comfort and His help. So I learned to ask questions.
I asked God to help me take a look a my life and discover who He had created me to be. I asked Him how I could best honor my design in my career as well as in my personal hobbies and interests outside of work. I started making note of what I knew about me and took inventory of the gifts that God had given me to work with. I wanted to use them well.
I took comfort in a belief that God could still use me and could rework a good plan out of the mess I found myself in.
But I also learned a thing or two about embracing joy during rough seasons and, after awhile, I learned about the importance of embracing pain too. I learned that the opposite of feeling no pain is feeling nothing at all. I learned to wonder to feel and to look at my life embracing every nook and cranny of my existence as mine.
Today, on the podcast, I pick up where I left off last week, sharing a bit of my own story and how I learned to appreciate the “gift of me”. It is important for everyone to stay awake at the wheel of their life and be alert to the precious unique gift placed inside — even during tough seasons.
Yes you should fight for your life, but every now and again, stop fighting long enough to look at your life and embrace what you find and receive God’s comfort.
Today I invite you to wake up and steward your unique life well — even in the midst of hard times.
I hope the devotional you read over at Proverbs 31 Ministries was a blessing to you. Even better? I hope you join me for the “Worthy” an Proverbs 31 Online Bible Study starting September 5th based on my book. The study will be ripe with opportunities for you to dig in to God’s Word and to be encouraged in your spiritual growth. It’s my hope that the free printable that I had designed for you encourages you too.
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Praying that you find Him to be the God of all comfort 🙂
It is after 3a.m. where I live and I could not sleep. I followed His leading to check my email for the Proverbs 31 Woman devotional. I have never heard if Chrystal but am blessed to embark on this journey. I signed up for the She’s Still There Online study. I believe I am embarking on a pivotal season of my life and the timing of this study couldn’t be better for me. I am so looking forward to it.
So glad you will be joining me on the journey of the study!
I don’t post comments on blogs but I cant hold back and not say how God is using you to speak to my life. I learned of you through your kingdom women book. As I am learning more about you it is refreshing to listen to how genuine and transparent you are. I am a single mother of two beautiful children and I am going through a divorce soon to finalize in a month. All kinds of life situations gave me a good kick in the gut and left me on my knees but I am filled with gratitude because it has shown me how helpless I am with out my Jesus. Thank You Chrystal! for allowing God to use you because through you God is showing me what a confident women in Christ looks like.
It is almost 4:30 a.m. and I, too, couldn’t sleep…opened today’s Encouragement devotional and here I am with Chrystal. What do you want me to learn, Lord?
Thank you Chrystal for your devotional and story about your husband’s stroke through Proverbs 31. Although I personally have not had a stroke, I do have chronic depression as well as diabetes (amongst other chronic conditions). Due to this, I have been unemployed since the beginning of this year. Fortunately I am under the care of my doctors and am doing better than before. I realize that I am having to be patient with myself. I feel as if I am starting again in life and having to learn about myself again. Taking one step at a time and knowing that it is ok. I have always known that I am loved and He is always with me. But it isn’t until now that I truly believe it. Spending time with Him, in worship, prayer, silence, in His word has strengthened my belief in His truth and promises. I still have my struggles where my thoughts and fears take a hold of me yet a song on the radio, a devotional, the breeze, the white puffy clouds, the song of the birds, a child’s smile remind me of God’s love and being there with me. Life is full of mountaintops, plateaus as well as valleys and He is there by my side. How reassuring to hear from others (you) that I don’t have to have everything figured out to move forward. Excited to take this journey, She’s Still There, with you and others!
It is 3:30am and I couldn’t sleep so I was reading my emails and read your email. It really encouraged me as I feel that God has forgetten about me. I continue to read my bible and pray for strength and guidance during my separation from my husband. He wants a divorce and tells me that he has moved on and I need to do the same but I would like to try to save our marriage. I just feel like giving up and give into his wishes.
Its 3:45 a.m., my 17 year old son just got home before 3, my husband also wants a divorce, he’s moved out of our bedroom and into my son’s. My youngest, 12 has a sprained ankle, scratches on his arm from falling off his scooter, and is getting teeth pulled today. I have so many chronic illnesses that overwhelm me daily…Fibromyalgia is one. Yesterday my check engine light came on, exhaust and transmission, wow, money I don’t have. I’m behind on all my bills, trying to keep up but truly can’t, seems no matter how much I work, it’s never enough and I’m always broke. I became really depressed this past Sunday, tried to hug my husband, expecting a hug back, wow, barely a response, asked my older son for one, again seemed like a fake hug, not tight and reassuring at all. My youngest gave me the best hug, tight and reassuring, he’s the only one in this family that truly cares about me. His sprained ankle is frustrating him, but I’m the only one that helps you around the house, I need to get better! I love him dearly but u only want him to enjoy his life and not be my crutch. If only..
Thank you God for everyday that you wake me, for the birds I hear and the trees I see. You are an awesome God.
Praying for you Maria, I’m so sorry that you are going through a tough time but you are right in that God is awesome and He is faithful. Lifting you up, Sister!
He never forgets about us 🙂 Be encouraged.
Thankfull to God for gently waking me this morning. Read Chrystal post Proverbs 31.
The devotional today, very much appreciated.
Thank you
Thank you sister. I appreciate you and your work for and in Christ. It’s 1:52am in San Mateo, CA. I felt the Holy Spirit leading me here. I would love a copy. Blessings.
Hi.Chrystal. i felt led to open and read the devotional for today and what a blessing.The scripture was my mom’s favorite and one she quoted daily. My mom has passed on to be with the Lord. I too have been through simular scares when my husband had a major heart attack. God brought him through with no damage to his heart. All that time we felt God had us in the palm of His hand. Thank you for sharing and reminding us that God is still in control.
Yes. He is always in control.
I’m still struggling to move past some difficulties in my life. I would love a copy of this book.
After 10 years of struggling with infertility I am devestated. I don’t understand. Recently I have been considering schooling to help others in a similar situation.
I have to pause and confirm with myself that I do this not to heal – for there is only one who can do that – but to use and expose the miracles he has designed. Nature, the truly amazing human body and his goodness.
I would love a copy of your book to help me on this path
I am so sorry that you are struggling with infertility. And I so sorry that it has left you feeling devastated. I am, however glad that you are looking forward to how you can be a blessing to others. You are right. Only God can heal and He does make all things beautiful in His time.
Thank you for being Gods vessel. Your words of going thru pain to completely empty struck home with my current state. Trying to hold on but feeling numb – past all feeling. When hurt – I cling to God – but when empty – it just feels, well, empty and no longer have the strength to cling – or search for Him. Your word is helping me feel that God is still here and will guide me. Thank you – I look forward to learning more.
I have my days of struggle, but I try to get past them by listening to and singing along with praise music.
Thank you Chrystal for your encouraging words. Our trials/battles/storms in life can be extremely exhausting and drain every ounce of energy in us. I am so thankful that God has gave me his supernatural strength during a continuing seven year storm in my life. I actually thank God for this long drawn out season in my life as he is making me stronger. I would not know many of the scriptures I know now if it hadn’t been for these past seven years. Thank you Chrystal for all your dedication with Proverbs 31 Ministries as you are a true blessing to many. ~Lisa~
Hi Chrystal, I was blessed to open my Encouragement for Today and read your story. Then i read Isiah 41-10 that was in your story and it brought tears. Just melted my heart ❤️ perfect for me today, tomorrow, forever. I earmarked it and it will be my favorite verse. It seems everyone has that “one” perfect verse that brings them comfort, this now MINE. Thank you!
Thank you for sharing your devotion this morning. A question for you .. how did you navigate all of the changes in your husband? This past winter my husband had a significant health challenge. After surgery he received the “all clear” from his doctor. I thank God for my man and his good health daily. Through this health emergency my husband’s entire perspective and life goals changed… granted mine changed too. Now though we seem to be on different levels walking the same road and I miss walking side by side like we have for the past 20 years. Do you have any suggestions?
I heard someone say once that God is the only person who can make sure we marry that right person now for who we are and the right person “then” for who we will be… and who they will be! I do believe it takes time to become one and sometimes that process leaves us feeling further apart then when we started. Assume that your husband is new. Get to know him. Go on dates. Ask questions. Rediscover the new you and the new him. Believe that God can continue His work of making the two of you one still. Hope that helps.
I felt like I was less important to God and like He didn’t care about my feelings and how the things in my relationship with my, then husband, made me feel. It was painful. I took matters into my own hands, tried to make my own happiness, drifted further and further awa my from God and into sin, divorced my husband, and got into a very deep pit. Everything was affected- my sons, my life, ministry, and my relationship with God. God has mercifully brought me back to Him and out of the pit, but some regrets- many regrets still remain. Lots of shame, fear, doubt, uncertainty about my worth and value in Him and to others- even though I know I am forgiven and cleansed. I want closeness with Him, I want ministry, I want closeness with my sons, I want a close loving relationship with a man where I can be real, validated, loved, and where he can be real, validated, and loved by me. I want my life to matter. I want to matter- to God and to others.
Oh my heart aches Elizabeth reading your post. I understand exactly how you feel. When we feel that we are not important to God, the feelings can be real but that is further from the truth. When we allow our decisions to be based on how we feel the results can be disastrous… ask me how I know. Choose to believe that you matter… because you do. Live as if you are loved… because you are. Don’t let your feelings decide what you will do. Let the facts rule the direction of your feet. I’m praying for you tonight that God would show you in small lovely ways that He sees you.
I also awoke at 5 am, just can’t sleep a full night. Found you through an online Bible Scripture reading. I also signed up for the study. Thank you
Thank you for sharing your story. We do all have our struggles in life each of us in different ways. But the same principles apply to handling our struggles. I plan to join the “Worthy” study and am looking forward to “SHE’S STILL THERE” !
I feel like I am struggling in every area of my life. My workload is overwhelming at my job, to the point I have been crying at work, and just wanting to quit. I have been asking for help but nothing has changed.
My house was broken into so I am dealing with the aftermath of repairs and insurance. I have thoughts of wanting to sell the house as I don’t feel safe there anymore.. I have been praying for direction as I am not sure what God would have me do. Help me Lord.
I’m so sorry life is so hard right now. Praying for you Brenda. Psalm 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, a help always near in times of great trouble.
I am still here! It seems that I have been dealing with depression lately. It seems that I am alone. I’m not….God always has my back.
I couldn’t sleep, honestly have been struggling who I am as a mom, a second time student, and wife. I have been trying to juggle it all and on the verge of shattering into a million pieces. I don’t like the mother I am to my daughter. I push my husband away until I’m starting to crack! I needed your email the most when it showed up in my inbox. I am signing up for the course. Praying God provides the answers I seek.
God Bless
I know exactly how you feel. One step at a time. One day at a time. Breath deep and look for even the tiniest of ways to make room to smile at your husband and daughter. You are balancing a lot and while you may not be able to adjust amount of weight you carry, you can adjust the way you carry it.
I so desire the same, to cherish the me God designed and to embrace the journey ahead.
Thank you Crystal for sharing your experience through a difficult time. After reading your post, I read it again but substituted my own low points in my life. I believe I knew it all along but you brought to the surface how truly present God was and is through all the struggles in my life and especially after the sudden death of my husband of 43 years. God was with me through it all offering His strength and guidance. .
Yes He is very present. Psalms 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, a help always near in times of great trouble.
I fell and broke my pelvis and went through a tough season but all along I was reminded God was still there. What was once very difficult I now know was a blessing
I am learning to see every mountain and valley as a gift! My life is WORTH living!
Finding myself in a recent season of divorce with three children 12 and under is NOT a place I ever envisioned myself to be. However, holding to God’s unchanging hand is allowing me to see that I am not forsaken and I am NOT discarded rubbish! I am God’s masterpiece….a work of art in progress.
Sometimes I hurt so badly within the walls of my heart that I literally cannot breathe! Those are the days that God whispers to me, “Daughter, I am here. Come and rest with me a while.” And if I allow His words to draw me to His unchanging word, I find relief and peace as I rest there a while!
I wish I would yield to the Spirit every day like I truly should! But I am growing through my pain and learning that God still loves me anyhow…broken, imperfect usually late for something and totally human to a fault!
…So grateful for His grace and mercy!!
Six weeks ago my husband suffered life-threatening complications following surgery in which he donated a kidney. During these weeks I’ve been conscious of the Lord’s presence around and with us throughout this long hospitalization. Your post today on Proverbs 31 described exactly what I’ve been experiencing. Since my husband is still hospitalized with what we hope is temporary renal failure and still dependent on tube feeding and oxygen, we look forward to the possibility of rehab and resuming our new normal life, even if it includes dialysis. God is my Tower and my Rock and ever present Help in my time of trouble. Thank you for sharing your experience in today’s Proverbs 31.
To God be the glory.! Thanks so much for your inspiration. Even though my story is different from yours, I have had my struggles through the last two years. Found out that my husband of 30 years has been unfaithful, not with one person, but four. It has crushed my spirit and tested my faith, but God has been faithful. I have found strength that I didn’t know I had. But I am still here trusting God for His complete healing. Thanks for your story.
Praying for you. I can’t imagine how much it must hurt but I want to applaud you for your choice to trust God for healing.
10 years ago as I walked a journey of cancer I can honestly say trust and faith was not a struggle, but the past couple years of getting back in to the work force after being a stay at home mom, financial struggle, early menopause, I have been all over the place with trust and faith. It’s scary and frustrating, I do not seem to recognize myself.
Thanks for your devotional.
I know what it is to not recognize myself. Be encouraged… she’s still there. Hang in there!
There’s something comforting in knowing that there are those out there who have experienced more hard life curves than the average yet they are still standing. Those words gave me hope that I too am still standing and will continue to stand because of Gods love and grace. It’s a definite confirmation of this time in my life, I’m struggling in finding the joy even in the bad times. I wish there was a guide to that because I’m sure having a hard time seeking that place but I’m sure I’ll get there one day. Many blessings to you, thank you for sharing ?
Thank you for sharing your story! Right now I am currently battling anxiety. I sometimes wonder why God is not taking this from me. I know he has a reason.
Thank you for sharing your story! Right now I am currently battling anxiety. I sometimes wonder why God is not taking this from me. I know he has a reason.
Such a timelt post for me. My husband suffered a carotid aneurysm and fall that caused multiple facial fractures. He also lost the sight in his left eye, We are soooo thankful for his excellent recovery. I am struggling with a nee normal. Would love to have a copy of your book. Blessings!
I really struggle with discouragement. I am so blessed and tell myself that everyday. The last two years have been crazy for my family and I have seen God’s mighty hand in it all. It has still been a struggle. Last February I had a kidney removed due to a tumor and that was so much easier than what would follow. My husband started having all kinds of health issues that were undiagnosable. We saw so many doctors and even spent a week at Mayo. Then he was finally diagnosed with Lyme Disease. That has been a struggle both on him as well as me. Our life has changed so much with him feeling exhausted all the time and he has developeded a lot of food allergies due to a yeast overgrowth from it. He has made improvement and I have been so blessed to be able to quit my job about 3 weeks ago and be home with out children who I also homeschool. That has been a major blessing from God. It still is so hard to keep my head up and not be selfish and want some encouragement and not complain. Most days I am good but there are those days that snowball from one discouraging situation to days of discouragement. I would love a copy of your book.
I understand having “those days”. I’m grateful that you and your husband have a diagnosis but I know the road isn’t easy. Praying for you tonight that God would strengthen you and that you would sense His care for you and your family.
I watched one of your podcasts, and learned so much about you! You are so normal! In talking about your children, your journey of faith, and your everyday life, you help me know that God is with me. It took me a while to turn to God for everything. My husband and I went thru trials and tribulations financially, and God was with us, guiding us every step of the way. Praise God! We have learned to praise Him in our storms, not just in the good times. Then came the heart attack that my husband had. That was a life changing journey for us both. Thank you for letting God use you to bring other women closer to Him. Thank you for sharing your journey. I don’t want to go thru everything, I want to learn what you have been thru and what you learned. You have been blessed, and in turn are a blessing to me and other women. Thank you!
Thanks for your transparency, Chrystal. I know God is with me through the difficult parts of life, but I often find myself feeling resentful towards those particular situations. Remembering God’s faithfulness over the years helps me set aside my feelings toward a situation or others so I can, like you, embrace the hard times, knowing that God works all things out for good as long as I trust him. Thanks again for sharing. I look forward to reading your book.
I love this reminder today! I am a worrier, but thankfully, I am growing in my faith and spend time in his Word and praying more about my worries than I did in the past. I am so thankful for our God, who sent His Son to die, so we can live. I am also thankful for people like you and Proverbs 31 who are such an encouragement to me:)
Thank you for your honesty Crystal. It encourages us and helps us be hopeful!
Ever since my dad died 20 years ago, just 3 days before my high school graduation, I have had a hard time trusting God. I prayed constantly and consistently for my dad’s healing, but it was not God’s plan for my dad to stay here on Earth. I’ve struggled with depression and had a miscarriage nearly 2 years ago–my first pregnancy. My husband and I are still trying for a family. My mom was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s after successfully beating cancer. Sometimes it’s too much and I wonder if God truly cares (which I know He does), but it’s been a difficult journey.
I’m sorry the road has been so hard. I understand how difficult it must be to believe that God cares. But He does. You have got to continue to hold on to that even when it seems as though He’s far. Continue to trust and draw near to Him. I am praying for you tonight. Hang in there.
Thank you for your devotion this morning. My husband has been going through health challenges for the past year. It is difficult to watch the changes these have caused and not know how to help him.
Yes. When we don’t know how to help, it’s so hard. But you know what? Love knows no formula, language, or prescriptive process. Just love your husband for who he is. That is a great thing to do and a great gift to give.
Thank you for sharing. My husband has had chronic lyme issues so I know all too well how the health of one spouse affects the entire family and marriage. I don’t see how people survive these times without leaning on God, I think that’s what got me through!
Would love this book!
Thank you for sharing your story and your faith in Christ. Such a scary thing to witness a stroke as it is happening but especially when the person is your own spouse. My son will be 8 months tomorrow but when he was 5 hours old he was found to have a low oxygen level. He ended up having pneumonia from taking in something into his lungs during birth. He needed to be air – lifted to another hospital a few hours away and needing to be intubated and was dependent on a ventilator. I remember during those 9 days in the nicu times of feeling a complete trust in the Lord and other times just completely losing it and not knowing what to do. I am so thankful though in that difficult time all the support we had and the power of prayer. My husband and I definitely felt God with us! Thank you again for sharing your story and your faith in Christ!
while I know that He is always w me, sometimes I first think I need to call a friend for prayer…..then I think ‘I’ need to pray………..
I have been in times where I definitely think God has favorites. And I still struggle in my life to fully trust. Coming from a broken family my mom separated my brother and sister and I to chase men. Leaving us with separated family members who went to church but treated us badly. At 4 all I wanted was someone to love me but instead I was confused,lonely, and lost.
Jumping from one family to the next my mom finally came into my life again. But with another man. This time I was molested by him and his father and he had done the same with his daughters.This took a toll on me. Of course time went on my mother separated and tried to do her best but many other men came I to our lives. Leaving g us no time for our mother to love us. But there was more abuse by others. And at 16 my mother couldn’t love me. I had always searched but with no earthly father and making the same mistakes my mother did. I found d myself with abusive men an cheaters. I now have kids and have been searching for so long. With my life worse than before now. I question what is my importance why didn’t I have a family who could lead me and teach me to love our Lord. But I always come up with your no good and not loved. Until yesterday. I finally told the Lord I don’t understand but I believe in you and receive you to lead me on a better path. I don’t know ow where that is but I need him.And I cried and cried. And even though I have not my family or anyone I can rely on. I am gonna do my best to keep my faith in him. And I know this won’t be easy. So please pray for me and my children to come through this with great faith and wisdom. Because I know the enemy is coming.
Praying for you and your children Stephanie. You are covered, thank god your children will not experience the same situation they are so blessed to have you.
Hi Stephanie 🙂 God doesn’t have favorites. There are people born into what great families who have their own struggles, difficulties, and stories that they may or may not share. We live in a fallen world which means we are fallen as are the people around us. I’m sorry that your road has been so rough but the blessing of it all is you are still choosing to trust God! Keep trusting Him. He has a way of taking the stories that look as if they will have the worst endings and turning them into fabulous tales of His lovingkindness and grace.
Thank you for sharing your story and the strength you have found through your faith. The journey you describe with your husband’s medical condition is inspirational and I am so happy that he has recovered. Seems as though my life is full of twists and turns this year – I imagine it like a maze that I cannot seem to get out of – and your post reminds me that I am not alone in this. I feel that I have strayed from my faith this year and have forgotten to trust God in the path that he leads my husband and I and our recent college graduate as she “leaves the nest”. I know I have a purpose after raising my children…I just have to find it.
Yes you do have a purpose. Seek and you will find. Seek God first and He will find you 🙂
I’m still here! Gods got me! I know that He Loves me and I want to hear Him speak.
Thank you for that sweet reminder of God’s steadfastness through every trial and difficulty we might face. This also reminded me of one of my favorite choral pieces. Hearing God’s Word set to music has such a special impact I believe. I hope this piece brings as much comfort to you as it does to me! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8aNISuvsP5M
You post was spot on for me! I’ve walked and am walking through a difficult time just now. My 53 yr. old husband had a massive stroke, open heart surgery, cardio version, ablation, severe internal bleeding and he has hemophilia. Our lives changed in an instant. We are still trying to find a new normal.My faith is so much stronger because I have seen God’s faithfulness and felt his peace. I want more! I am seeking him daily and would love a copy of your book! Blessings to you and thank you.
Thank you for the reminder that there is Grace in every season of life!
Thank you for your devotional today. I needed the reminder to find joy in my situation and to trust that the Lord is in control. My husband died 4 years ago after suffering for several years with a disease that took away his ability to walk, talk and swallow. Those years were beyond difficult and life raising two teens alone has not been easy. There are days when I feel overwhelmed with despair but the Lord always reminds me of his goodness and the numerous blessings he has provided along the way. Today you have been his vehicle to remind me once again. God bless you on your journey.
Turning “50” this year, two grown sons, a husband who is my best friend & I wonder, Is She Still There?
It is hard sometimes as Christians to understand why so many bad things come our way. We look around at those who never give God a second of the day and they seem to prosper with not problems. BUT I am learning thru my journey that the God on the mountain is still the God in the valley. Sometimes very painful, but He has always brought me thru!!
In my 64 years of life, I have had many ups and downs. The key to getting through them all has solely dependent upon my relationship with God by abiding in His Son Jesus and His Word. Whenever I reach a tipping point due to overwhelming circumstances, God leads me by His Word to a new depth of faith and trust in Him. But now at this tipping point age, I am feeling very inadequate and.unsure for the next season of my life. Feeling ‘overlooked and dried up’ so the speak, I wonder what’s difference my life will make. ‘Worthy’ sounds like a source of help in this life season.
On February 12, 2012, without any warning, my husband was diagnosed with Stage 4 advanced Head and Neck cancer. To say how bad it was, after it was over, one Doctor said, he was not sure he would ever see my husband in his office again. But God healed him!! Hallelujah! This April when he went for his checkup, 5 years out, our oncologist, who assures us He works for God, words were “You’re cured. And the chances of this coming back is minuscule.” We praise God for what He’s done and what He continues to do. It was a long journey and continues to be, as there are many side effects that have to be dealt with. You’re testimony of you and your husband was so like mine. He is different, which is very difficult for him sometimes, and I am also different. We are different. But with God’s wonderful love and grace we get through and continue to praise Him for His miracle of healing my husband. I share his story with anyone who will listen to honor, praise and show people what a loving and caring God we have who is still in the miracle business!! God bless you and you husband!
Not sure I’ve ever been there-so much of my life has been about survival that dreaming seemed impossible, Now I have no idea what God created me to do besides praise him and pray! Sounds sad, I know, specially since I am 61!!
Yes. Survival is a real thing. It’s okay not to know. It’s not sad. At 61 you still have life and vitality. You have wisdom. You have insight. You still have the opportunity to dream and to choose, one day at a time, to live your life to the fullest. Start from where you are and move forward.
Thanks you for your encouragement.
Thank you Chrystal. I am so lost now. I have great faith and know to trust Gods plan…but I’m lost. A change in seasons….ending my career early due to physical disability. I worked in special education and preschool for 30 years. This is the 2nd job in 5 years I’ve lost due to physical problems. I’ve applied for SS Disability….now I need to be needed. I need something, someone to take care of….to give….to be a part….to have friends as it seems many have forgotten me….I’m lost…I don’t know my role now! But in time I will….thank you for the reminder that in time and depending on His strength and plan….I will find my way.
Yes you will Tammy. Yes you will. Hang in there!
Thank you, I am dealing with some discouragement and disappointment. Your Devotion has given me hope.
God has me at a stand still right now. I thought I new what I wanted to do but have lost some of my gifts or maybe their suppressed. I have been examining my life lately and am not sure where God wants to take me in life. I’m like a woman in midlife right now though I’m 36. There have been some lows and sometimes they seem many. One positive thing is that God shows up every once in a while and speaks to me. When ever he shows up I think about the title of your book and think to myself, “He’s Still There”.
Love that Rachel
God BLESSES*
Chrystal, praise be to God who works through you , thank you. The way you express is fluid and poignant and I am grateful.
Your book is a welcome hope
This seems like such a timely post, So many choices right now, so many pressures to try and balance. This post feels like another stepping stone forward.
Thank you Chrystal. Thank you for this reminder. I need to hear it each and every day!
Thank you for sharing TRUTH and your heart. You and your family are a BLESSING to so many. THANK YOU!
I’m almost 46 years old, coming up on 19 years of marriage and looking at being an empty nester in just 3 short years, with my 1st leaving in just 2. I feel empty and hollow and really really not sure of what my life is going to look like in the very near future. I’m praying for direction and for comfort.
I’ve been struggling with my marriage for many years but in the last 20 months we have been working on what happened and how to resolve our problems. I learned that I need to learn who I really am deep within myself and it has been a journey and a work in progress. This book sparked a real interest for me as I feel I may be help with my healing.
There have been so many times over the past few years that I could’ve easily sunk into depression due to circumstances with my husband’s job, which means questions about our finances, security, his happiness at work, the future. Going from lay off to working like crazy and not knowing what kind of position they are going to put him in next. Currently I find myself almost like a single mom, home schooling 3 boys with another on the way while my husband has no choice but to work very long hours to the point that he gets very little sleep and we don’t see much of him. I wonder how I’m going to do this with 4 boys and I wonder how much more my husband can take of feeling like a robot. And I question who I am meant to be in the midst of it all. There’s no time for my passions, my gifts and talents (which I don’t even know I have- I can’t even do mothering right). There’s got to be more to my life than just my role as a mother. BUT…through it all God has been our center, our peace, our answer when there is no other answer. When I feel like I could despair, I allow myself to talk to God about my feelings and others for counsel, but there’s too much to be thankful for to stay in despair. My kids are healthy, I’m really not a single mom, there IS a job , God provides all the time, I am saved and loved by my Creator and His plans are always good, and so much more. I would love a copy of this book and be involved in the next study to help me figure out who I am in the midst of the mess. Thank you Chrystal!
Love how you choose to see the best even in your difficult circumstances. Continue to choose gratitude. You are giving yourself and your family a gift. It won’t always be like this. One step at a time. One day at a time.
Timely devotional and study as we just took our oldest to college. A comforting reminder of God’s presence in our lives.
Your devotional & blog post were inspiring. The reminder to ask directions for the next steps and that He is always there gave me courage and hope.
Im 50 and have 4 children , lost my husband 2 yrs ago to a massive heart attack , I would love a copy of your book. God is faithful even more in the hard times…
I’m so sorry for your loss. Praying for you tonight Karen.
I have recently found out my husband has had several affairs. I’m struggling with my faith. It seems people that are non- believers have it easier in life. I’ve prayed asking God to help me in this situation but God seems to be no where around.
I’m so sorry Connie. He is there. You are walking in the dark and may not feel it but He is there. Keep trusting as you continue to take one step at a time. Yes. It does seem as if non-believers have it easier at times but don’t let what “seems to be” move you from the beauty of knowing a loving God even in the darkest of times.
Thank you for your blog todday. I cried as I read your words because they mirror my life with my husband. Our journey continues to be hard as the residual of my husbands stroke has been difficult for him to accept at times and his frustration fades into depression, sometimes for days. Your statement “He is different. I am different. We are different”, was the moment in my reading that I lost it. My husband wants “the old days”, and I know I am powerless to give them back to him. Funny thing is, his memory was affected and he doesn’t have a accurate recollection of how the “old days” were. I know that our God is with us wherever we go, and that He is able to strengthen us and uphold us – but I daily need to be in prayer for what lies ahead. I am so thankful for His grace and forgiveness when I let hurt and fear cloud my knowledge all the He is!!
Chrystal, Thank you for a wonderful Proverbs 31 devotion and for your blog too. You are gifted. I am looking forward to your book, whether I win it or eventually buy it. I would do an online study – if I had time. In our church’s group, we have done a study by your sister Priscilla. You are also blessed, as is your father. Blessings, Patti
My recent journey, while the hardest, most unexpected journey of my life is filled with God winks and moments. I have been convinced over and over that HE knew it was time – that enough was enough and HE was not going to allow me to remain in the current (then) situation.
HIS handprint became everywhere!!! It has been the most amazing experience of my life!
I can’t wait to read your book!!!
Thank you for the artwork!!!
Hoping for the book. In my life it’s not a stroke but an affair that I never saw coming. I need to find the me that is still there, somewhere. I’m trying to make it work with my husband but it’s hard when there is no remorse. I’m trusting God completely but it’s hard accepting He is all I can live for and applying the knowledge the He is enough for me forever. I know I should have put all my hope in him long ago and I thought I did but this even is helping me see I wasn’t fully relying on god in the past.
I am so sorry to hear about the difficulties in your marriage. But God is a God of restoration even if you and your husband are not operating on the same spiritual level. As hard as it is let’s trust Him and start seeing what we believe; that marriage can be the way God intended.
Thanks for your service and for this devotional! I needed to read this today!
I just read your post and really took it to heart. It was what I needed today. I plan to do your Bible study with Proverbs 31. I am struggling now and need God’s hand. I look forward to reading your book and participating in your study.
I am definitely in that situation of wondering where God is in the midst of all our financial, career and health challenges that we have been dealing with for the past few years. Proverbs 31 emails help, but I continue to feel like that child that has fallen out of His favor. Trying to keep the faith, but sometimes it feels like one step forward, two steps back. Thank you for sharing your story.
Peg, I’m so sorry for the situation you find yourself in, and I’ve prayed for you today. My Pastor recently spoke about troubles in our lives and something that especially stood out for me was this: “Are you more concerned about getting out of the trouble you find yourself in, than you are about learning what God has for you IN the trouble?” That so convicted me! It definitely challenged me to change my view of the circumstances I found myself in, and ask God to open my eyes to what HE was trying to teach me.
I hope that He delivers you soon, but whenever it is, I know it will be in His PERFECT timing!
Blessings to you!
Terri
Such great counsel from your pastor Terri!
Thank you so much Crystal!! I can SO RELATE to your words today!!
There was a defining moment in my life about 8 years ago when one of the most foundational relationships I knew was ripped away from me. My God, who loved me more than I knew at the time, showed up immediately to apply salve to my broken heart. After hanging up the phone in tears, I climbed into my minivan to go pick up my kids from school. I turned on the radio and God was there, in the words of the the following songs that played back to back, all the way to school. By the time I arrived, I was no longer crying, but praising God instead. I will never forget just one of the times that God showed His love for me when I needed it most!
“Eye of the Storm”
https://www.bing.com/videos/search?q=Audio+for+the+song+%22Eye+of+the+Storm%22&view=detail&mid=B525C72D98C65CC1A496B525C72D98C65CC1A496&FORM=VIRE
“Bring the Rain”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e8HgAVenbUU
“Praise You in This Storm”
https://www.bing.com/videos/search?q=Audio+for+the+song+%22Praise+you+in+the+Storm%22&&view=detail&mid=425D59C857B2419712A1425D59C857B2419712A1&FORM=VRDGAR
To anyone else who is struggling right now, KNOW that God is right there with you, and He cares so much for you. He is faithful to take your ashes and turn them into beauty. He did it for me, and He WILL do it for you too!! Blessings to you!!
Thank you for your devotional this morning. What a great reminder that during this time of struggle in my life that you are with me and will never leave me.
I am currently going through a rough season in my life. In 2014 I thought I found the man who was right for me and we became engaged. During the next year I discovered that though he spoke words of love, his actions showed that all he cared about was himself. I was the only one making compromises. After lots of prayer I decided to end the relationship. Within a month I was let go from my nanny job(I’ve been a nanny since 1997 & the family I had been working for for 3.5 years let me go so they could hire someone they could pay less). I started to feel displaced in my life. I went out of state to help a couple of friends, thinking I’d find a new direction. Instead I found a deep depression. I knew God was still with me, my faith in Him has never waivered. It’ll be 2 years this October since these two life changing events happened and I am still without direction. I have no idea if I should find another nanny job or branch outside of my comfort zone and try something new. All I do know is that God is Always with me and that He has blessed me with a very understanding mom. Thank you for sharing that it’s okay to be lost in a season of life. I don’t feel like I’m alone. May God continue to bless you and your family.
You are not alone. Lost does not equal lifeless. Keep moving forward one day at a time, one step at a time.
Life is very hard for me right now and I am doing what I can to hold on and trust God as His word dictates. Peace, joy and happines are treasures I so desire.
God has truly been a comfort to me in my life. I am in only child. God called my mother home when I was 27 and called my father home 3 years later. It was the most challenging time of my life. Now I am in the process of trying to save my home and it’s been a long 2 year process. It had been draining, but God told me in a dream that He was tgaking care of me. I woke up singing that. God is a comforter. If He wasn’t I would have gone under by now
He is the great comforter. John 14:16 (AMP) And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Helper (Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor—Counselor, Strengthener, Standby), to be with you forever—
Anything that changes the ones you love and care for changes you, whether it be medical, mental or spiritual change. Thanks for this perspective
Thank you Chrystal for your honesty and openly sharing. God bless you and your whole family. I look forward to the Bible study, your book, and devotions. I am at a crossroads in life, so much happening with health, job, finances, family, etc. I feel paralyzed in making decisions that have to be made very soon. I’m praying for wisdom and clarity. I would appreciate any prayers. Thank you.
God is truly our only hope in our journey of life. People will fail us, but God can’t and won’t no matter what we are going through.
Hi Crystal,
Yes, sometimes I feel that the lows in my life are overtaking the highs. I found out last week that I have to have a needle breast biopsy done this coming Thursday. I know that God has this matter in the palm of His hand and He will walk with me through the days ahead. But often times I feel myself sinking into despair and wondering the ‘what ifs’.
I so much appreciate your devotion today on the Proverbs 31 ministry site.
I am so grateful for the health that has returned to your husband. May God continue to shower down His blessings upon you both.
Blessings,
Lynette
Praying tonight Lynette that all went well with your biopsy and that you are experiencing God peace.
Last summer an hour before we had a shooting at my workplace I had shown the video “Run, Hide, Fight” to new employees. The next day I heard from some of those employees that because they had just seen the video they knew exactly what to do. I knew the Lord had inspired me to include the video in my training. The next evening my grown son also had what appeared to be a stroke. Later was diagnosed with conversion disorder. As he was in the ER he was so upset I relayed how the Lord had used me to make a difference at work. I could see him sigh & relax. In the days that followed once his speech returned we talked about the events leading up to his like stroke event. He was extremely worried about my safety. I was able to reassure him that the Lord always has His angels watching over me. I meet a stranger at a gas pump in route to the hospital that night that even spoke a word of encouragement to me. I know that the Lord was the source of my strength through the events & continues daily to be my strength.
Thanks for sharing your story.
I’ve recently gone through one of the hardest challenges I’ve ever had to face in my lifetime. I learned that my 15 year old daughter was self-harming and suicidal. I don’t think there is any pain greater than seeing a child that you adore with all your heart, hurting and you can’t fix it for them. Throughout this whole time I’ve cried out to God in desperation, I’ve hated him, I’ve blamed him and then in the next breath cried out to him for signs of hope, for strength and mercy. I’m learning to have faith and trust that he knows what he’s doing, he sees what we’re going through and that he is there and that all of the work will turn out for good and that he knows what’s best for my daughter and our family. She’s recovering, she has great days and she has bad days. This whole challenge has brought us closer to each other and I am definitely closer to God, as his she. So it has brought about blessings. And everyday I remind myself that God knows better than I do what is best for both of us. He knows the future and what it can hold and what he wants for us is greater than anything I could imagine. So my strength and my faith have become stronger through the pain. Thank God for being there for us because I could not and cannot do it without him
Oh yes Melissa. We need him!
Thank you for the wisdom of this devo. Considering if this is God’s leading for me, as a 50-something, etc. etc.
He is always leading us…whatever the age.
I often wish there was a reset button in my life… I I feel as though if i’ve missed the mark of where God wants me and who he created me to be… I feel lost. That’s what has drawn me to you, your book “She’s Still There” and the study “Worthy”. I hope I am able to get the book and study before it begins! Thank you for your beautiful devotion and this podcast. God bless.
I’m in my 40s and everyday feel like I don’t have life figured out but I know God s right there, holding my hand and guiding me through life. Thank you for sharing and for encouraging us!!!
Right there with you Cheryl
Thank you for this encouragement. I am in one of those dark places again. This time will be different because I now know and believe that Jesus is with me always and he has given me Web sites, like yours, a church family and my own family ro help me through and be there no matter the outcome. GOD BLESS YOU ALL!
Yes this time can be different.
Thank you for sharing your story. It is encouraging to hear stories of others that are holding on to God to carry them through. Life can be so overwhelming, and I see from the comments that so many are hurting. I long for Jesus to return and take us to heaven. My husband of 28 years was called into ministry 14 years ago, and he let the last 4 years of his ministry distract him from his close relationship with his father. He began to elevate his work or “ministry” above everything, and our marriage and his relationship with our sons suffered greatly. He became burned out, and fell into an affair. It has been over a year since that was exposed, and he is still involved with the other woman. He hasn’t divorced me,, and I haven’t felt that God wanted me to file for divorce. This has been the hardest thing I have been through in my 51 years, and I am fighting to stay surrendered to my Lord and to trust Him. I miss my husband – he was my best friend for years, and he loved God more than anyone I knew. My heart is broken for him as well as myself and our sons. I don’t believe he will ever be happy turning from the Lord and His will. I hate for this man who loved God so much to walk away from his family and his calling, because it is walking away from his God. This life has so much pain due to sin – I am ready for heaven and for all tears to be wiped from our eyes!
Thank you for sharing your stories, being transparent, and your honesty. I know God is always with me because He kept me as a young girl who lost the only parent I had. Also because there’s no other explanation for how I’ve survived the constant struggles of my marriage. I’ve been at the threshold of quitting and it was God alone who pulled me back. Hard blows to endure…but God!!! Because of Him, my life will be victorious!
May God continue to bless you, your family, and your ministry!
Thanks for the opportunity!
Love your attitude!
I’m on a journey of uncertainty but I know God is with me each and every moment of this journey giving just what I need to keep putting one foot in front of the other.
Thank you for sharing your story. It is encouraging to see God work through the struggles.
Almost a year ago my husband walked out on me. It has been 10+ months of crying, despair, soul searching, praying and healing. The Lord has been with me the whole way and was my only source of comfort and strength for months. I have learned, finally, after 30 years that I am worthy just because. I matter, I deserve to be number 1 in someone’s life, even if its only mine. At 48 yrs old I am finally confident and comfortable in my own skin. I am able to be alone and be ok with it because I know He is always with me. I pray daily and see His work everywhere. I’m not saying that I don’t still struggle but I give it to God and the answers always come. I trust Him exclusively and have handed my fears over. I take great comfort in knowing that His plan for my life is way better than anything that I could come up with. I know I will be taken care of and everything I need will be provided for.
Oh my Raeann… your words here ” I deserve to be number 1 in someone’s life, even if its only mine.” That is so profound. I’m so grateful that you shared that and that you are finally confident and comfortable in your own skin. That is such a gift. Even if you struggle sometimes, I can sense even from the words in your comment. Thanks for sharing!
I really appreciated your devotional and post here this morning. I am not here to win the book since I already have it ordered and await the arrival, but I wanted to simply thank you for the encouragement. Sometimes I wonder if she’s still there, and also if I would even recognize her. I look forward to this journey.
I have been & still am working very hard, as much & in as many circumstances as possible, on not worrying or stressing over difficult & unsure times, but rather trusting God & having faith in Him, believing that he will provide, protect, & work things out for good or better. I do believe that the area of my life that is the hardest to apply this is myself (my continuous, life affecting/altering, unmanaged A.D.D., with resulted daily struggles & disabling symptoms) & my marriage (part of which goes hand & hand, although my A.D.D. is fuel to the fire, it is def not the spark or the only accelerant. I pray, & appreciate any additional prayer, over this & other areas of my life & for guidance, wisdom, discernment, & all fruits of the spirit, for myself, my husband, & our 2 daughters.
God has been with me through a very long journey through my husband’s addiction to prescription pain medication and into recovery. I know that He will be with us for the rest of our lives as we grow in our respective recoveries and together with God to recover our marriage as well.
Thank you for sharing.
God has put many trails and tests on me. Each one has giving me strengh. But this last test has made me cry and scream to Him. Begging to not let Satan have a foothold in my life again. I have and am holding on to His scared handand this time I refuse to let go. I dont know why He continual tests me but I Trust Him. So with shaky knees I pray for strength, grace, forgiveness and love. Trials lost custody of 2 kids, 2 others cant forgive me. 2 husbands have found me unvaluable. A boyfriend is new chapter but fear has me gaurded and he is facing an issue that I dont know how to help him with. The emotions I feel have him and I on a roller coaster ride. God placed him in life and I want to honor God in how to honor this man. Without sounding selfish I give all in relationnship but I need more from him. How do I honor God, choice to love again when more lows than highs. I have been alone in all phases no family or friends. All I have is God! My faith is tested when feel to weak to understand trials. Proverbs 31 women have helped me so much in the last few years. So thank you!
My favorite saying is “Give it to God”. When we had a major medical emergency and didn’t know if our son would live or die when he was 19, I knew I had to put it all in Gods hands and believe that whatever happened was Gods will. He saved my son. We are raising that sons daughter and just had a major emergency with her and I had to put her in Gods hands. Once again, God wrapped his loving arms around our little one and she is doing great! I know how hard it can be, but I know he is always with me.
IT IS SO HARD TO BELIEVE GOD IS WITH YOU BECAUSE THERE IS NO PHYSICAL EVIDENCE OFTEN TIMES OF GOD HELPING YOU PLEASE HELP ME WIN THIS BOOK WE ARE SHORT ON FINANCES THANKS TO GODS TRIALS AND SUFFERING WE ARE SOO DISGUSTED AND NEED HELP
WE HAVE EXPERIENCED YEARS OF UNDESERVED SEVERE DISTRESS WE LIVE WITH IT EVERYDAY AND AGONY PLEASE HELP US OUT !
I love today’s devotional being a hospice nurse and being in an alcoholic relationship for 39 years trusting God has been what has brought me through. I read Kingdom Woman and plan on ordering “She’s still there” and doing your online bible study Worthy.Thank You for what you do. You help so many women!!
I went through a very dark time in my life in 1994. I had a breakdown and was suicidal. Something happened that was so bad I decided I didn’t want to live. And so began my intense and desperate search for God. “Where are you, God? I can’t find you”. It was a long journey and much pain along the way and through a series of events I realized I believed IN God but I didn’t believe HIM. I was out of hope. I figured that I had used all my chances and that God wouldn’t give me another chance. But I still searched. And I knew He was there. It was like He gave me nuggets along the way to let me know He was there. I started writing letters to Him and then I would answer them. I was raised In church. So I would take verses I knew and personalize them. I went to the edge and looked over…but God pulled me back. And I 2004, I gave my heart to Him. And He has so awesomely changed me life. Never again will I feel alone. Even though I have still gone through some hard times, I never doubted he was there. And I knew I was safe and am safe in His living arms. I am signed up to do the OBS and am looking forward to it.
In the past year and a half the Lord has allowed me to be stripped of every earthly security. My husband divorced me, me 2 teenage daughters barely speak to me because of their father’s lies, I lost a job suddenly and was without a job for over 6 months, my car was repossessed because of nonpayment by my ex and I wanted to kill myself…….but God had other plans!!! He has shown me over and over that He is with me at all times and that even if He chooses to allow difficult storms and trials, He will never let me go. I now know to the deepest part of my soul that I would rather be struggling with God holding onto me that breezing through life without Him. Thank you for being bold and vulnerable enough to share your life struggles and victories!!
Oh, how I would love to have this book. The past few years have been life changing for me.
Today’s devotion could have been written by me. My husband had a stroke 6 years ago. I had to step up to the plate in decision making. Buying and selling our dream house in the country to move to town. Renovating our previous rental to our primary residence. I have no experience in contracting, but along came my son-in-law to orchestrate the major projects. I have maintained Faith in God’s plan and have found unexpected blessings. Praise God from Whom all blessings come.
You said it so well when you said the opposite of not feeling the pain is feeling nothing at all….which I can verify leads to health problems and depression! I needed to hear that again today. Thanks.
Thank you for sharing your story. I’ve had fibromyalgia for over 25 years. It is a devasating disease and brings with it many other problems. I’ve had chronic migraines as long as I can remember as well as other health problems. The pain and the fibro fog got so severe, I had to leave my employment as a registered nurse 6 years ago. December 8, I suffered a stroke. God was very merciful. My husband got me to the hospital where my neurologist is and I was treated with tPA to disolve the clot that caused my stroke. I still have some core weakness on my Rt. side, but am trying to strengthen it as much as my physical ability will allow. I don’t understand what God is trying to teach me throughout all of this. I try to hold onto God’s hand and I do know He is always with us. Some days when the pain is almost unbearable, it’s hard. I pray for strength to live the life God wants me to live and to live in such a way other’s can see God through me. I would love to have a copy of your book.
Within months I went through a husband’s betrayal and divorce and then my father (my rock) was diagnosed with cancer. That was so hard for me to go through both of these. My husband was incarcerated for his actions so there is no contact with our children. My father passed away after 5 months, but God allowed me and my kids to move in with my mom and dad and I was able to spend this time with him and helping my mom with him. God is good even though times were hard, we survived.
Almost four years ago on September 03, 2013, my ex-husband put our daughter on the school bus while I started my first day at a temporary job. My ex-husband packed his bag and walked out and abandon us. We had to relocate and live with my parents as I struggled to get on my feet to provide for us.
Presently I work with State Services, however my resources continuously affect how my daughter and I are even now struggling. Nonetheless, I thank God for the many blessings no matter how big or small, my daughter and I will always be grateful.
You, your ministry and blog have been such a blessing to me. I have gone through so much in my life and at times have truly felt like I have lost who I am. I lost my mother tragically when I was eleven years old, lost my grandmother a year later and lost my childhood and motherly love with those loses. With those I feel like I have lost who I truly am. Lost the view that God has on me. A feeling of unworthiness filled my life. Since connecting with your writings, I have a sense of hope that I do have a purpose in life and that I do matter – and for this I thank you. I pray to continue on this upward journey and pray that my relationship with Christ continues to strengthen each day.
Hi Diera! Thank you so much for sharing your story. You are the winner of the signed copy of She’s Still There! I will be emailing you to get your mailing address.
I’m entering a new season in life as the first of my children is entering her Senior year. I’m so excited for what the future holds, but at the same time I want to freeze this moment in time. I have discovered that while my husband and I have worked hard to make our a marriage a priority from the beginning, I have not put much thought into what life post children at home looks like. I feel so lonely sometimes, like I have plenty of acquaintances, but no true friends. I know I should pray about it. I feel unable to pray about much of anything lately. I feel so stuck. I know God is still with me. We’ve had some undeniably powerful times together. I’m not sure why I find myself in such a paralyzed state. I’m scared.
Oh bless you!!! I have been on the journey of a hubby with strokes as well. I know exactly what you all have gone through! We have been there too. Wishing that we hadn’t, but God is using our hardships to draw others to Himself.
We too have written a book on our “storms” of life and how God brought us through. “Finding Peace in Life’s Storms” is the title.
I think you and I could cry on each others shoulders…it was ONLY through His strength we are on the other side.
Hugs, love and prayers to you!
When hard seasons come I am ready for them to be o-ver! Most times in feel like God has left me to fend for myself. He can seem silent, distant and hard to find. However, because in these times I have to search harder, I end up stronger and with fortified endurance. A muscle memory for that particular issue. But in the midst of it, it can be so dark for me. It is only the word that will provide me with the light and sometimes I don’t want to reach for my Lamp.
I read somewhere, sometime…imagine the hugs and kisses you give your child and the feeling that brings. God does the same. He’s always there. And he feels even greater about us.
Life has been rough. My entire life. Several years later than each event I can see the whys. I can see the benefit and the horrors of those events. Right now I’m in the middle of another. It’s hard to go day by day. The only thing keep in me going are the small glimmers of Him.
There is no such thing as love! Nice story n how sweet you hv a family that “loves” n supports one another. Good for you. What a depressing reality to hear how life should be. Msg is depressing for those who are old n time has passed n we hope this is over sooner rather than later
Thanks Crystal for sharing how God has& keeps working in your life.
May the new book be used powerfully, to His glory, to show who He is and how He treasures, cares for and perfectly comforts those He’s made.
God bless. L?
Chrystal,
You are such a blessing – not only in the words you say, but in the comforting, lyrical sound of your voice.
I am looking forward to the P31OBS. I already have your book. God is certainly using you for his kingdom!
I need to find me! So lost in doing being everything for every one else I lost me! I’m frustrated and can’t seem to
The things I like and feel forced to please everyone else always doing what I don’t want too. I truly need this book.
A text I just sent to my parents, sharing the proverbs 31 devotional with them, just after they left my home where they shared with my husband and I that my dad may have lung cancer: “I just prayed and asked for God to show Himself in the midst of all of this. Then I went to this website and read today’s devotional. Isaiah 41:10 is the verse that kept repeatedly showing up in different places shortly before I was diagnosed [with breast cancer] last year. Joshua 1:9, the verse above our fireplace, is also within this devotional. God is here and His mercies are new every morning. Just when you don’t know how you’ll get through a new day, He shows up and gives you what you need. I love you both. http://proverbs31.org/devotions/devo/the-one-thing-that-always-comforts-me/”
My dad said that he had been clinging to Joshua 1:9 over the past couple of weeks. I was diagnosed with breast cancer 11 months ago. Over the two previous months before my diagnosis, Isaiah 41:10 kept popping up everywhere. God is using those two verses to being comfort and reassurance of His love and care to my family. Thank you for sharing your story and allowing it to be a source of comfort as well. May God bless you for it.
Hi Chrystal! I am so grateful that God led me to this devotional and blog at just the right time. I pray that I can apply the verses to my situation to help me not just know in my head but trust in my heart that He knows my situation and will strengthen me through it. I have recently moved my 83 year old Daddy in with me and my husband to care for him after 2 heart attacks, a difficult gall bladder surgery, and a mini-stroke. I have had to leave a teaching job I loved and feel like I have given up everything I once enjoyed in life to become a full time care giver. It has taken a physical and emotional toll on me and has put quite a strain on my marriage. I wish I could say that I have seen how God is working in this situation but I simply cannot. I feel very alone. I would love a copy of your book. I have enjoyed hearing you speak at my church, Seacoast, as well as Anthony and Priscilla, and hope that your book would reinforce some of the truths that my brain knows but my heart just doesn’t feel right now. Thank you and my prayers go out to you and your husband as you care for him.
I am struggling now! I lost my job. I was fired because a new director came in and just got rid of me. I was denied to receive my 214 hours of vacation pay – I am going to a meeting to fight that. I may not be able to draw any unemployment or be penalized. I have put in 50 or so applications, had three interviews, but nothing. I am looking at light- bill turned off in 8 days if the money does not come. I go back to online school at Liberty University for my Master’s Degree August 28th, but I am so stressed. I do not even know how I will pay for the internet to take my classes. I have been praying constantly! I trust God one day, but the next day; I feel like He does not hear me. I am praying for help from God! Please Pray For Me, Chrystal.
I like you found myself a mom at the very young age of 17, but we decided to marry. After 23 years of verbal, mental, emotional and some physical abuse, I finally filled for a divorce on 08/01/16. Needless to say this has been the hardest year of my life as he has continued to abuse anyway he could and the divorce is still not final. Through it all I have grown closer to the Lord than ever before. I’m also trying to discover who I am again and Gods purpose and will for my life after loosing it somewhere in the 23yrs of abuse. I have to believe “She’s still there” and eventually over time and with lots of prayer the person God created me to be will slowly begin to show up again. Your book and the Bible study with Proverbs 31 sounds like they both would be a huge help in the process. Thank you so much for sharing your heart in this devotion today it was truly encouraging to read.
We are missionaries in West Africa and are about to send our second child to boarding school next week. We know it is the right step for him but there are days that I dread what is coming. Your post encouraged me yesterday to remember that God will be with me during those hard days and so I will get through it, even though I feel like my heart is being pulled out of my chest at times. Thank you.
I truly need this study. God knows I need this study. He is always right. I have been experiencing that ” I lost myself” for some time now. I just didn’t really know where to learn about it and receive help with it. It’s been a struggle within me, do I just give up or what? I’m so excited to get started! Thank you!!!
Thank you for the encouraging devotional and the chance to win your book!
While our family is going onto some major struggle right now, I can still find comfort in God’s Grace shown through few influencial people in our lives. And I am So Grateful for each of them. Yes there are moments of disbelief and weak faith but He brings me back somehow. From where we are I can’t see our lives without Him! Have a blessed week!
Good morning. I’m grateful for your post at 4:22 in the morning. You’re words and God’s Word was such an encouragement at this time in my life. Five days ago I had to under go masectomy. Just to be reminded that God knows right where I am strengthen me a little more. He’s reminding me I have nothing to fear He is the one that’s keeping me through this process. Thanks for your words.
I truly know in my heart God is with me during every season of my life. He celebrates the blessings with me and is there during my darkest thoughts and ever lingering morning depression. I pray each day during my devotional time with God to free me from the looming guilt, fear and enslavement I have allowed Satan to ‘rear his ugly head’ at times. Each day is truly a blessing, I will face the challenge and continue to grow in Gods faith.
Thank you for your post. Looking forward to the study. I believe in my heart God wants me to learn something that will bless me and help me in my faith journey.
Hi Chrystal,
I didn’t understand God’s Love for me or who Jesus is until I was bargening, begging really for what to do to cure my husband. His cancer had come back & I was desperate to figure out what to do, so I prayed which turned into bargening ( I was raised Catholic). The instant my words finished leaving my mouth, I heard, in my heart, ” You’re asking for the wrong thing. Ask for acceptance. I have a plan for the four of you. You’re not going to like it, but it’s amazing”. In that same instant, I could breathe. I went from hyper & stressed to the max to Peace and a can do spirit capable of doing every single thing God put in my heart, even the times He meant for me to wait patiently. I also received Joy. You see, our children where 16 months & 2 1/2 and were growing & doing such amazing things that I was missing in my single minded focus to find the cure for my husband. Our family motto became Life is Good. When my husband’s cancer came back 1 of the 10 times and was terminal, I got my husband’s friends to help me throw him a surprise party to remind him who he was before cancer. Honestly, I didn’t do anything, I wasn’t strong at all. On my own I was a stressed, depressed, defeated woman, but I wasn’t alone, I had God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit working thru me. When my husband was terminal for the final time (we received many miracles of extra time), our children and I were so full of Peace it was amazing. We celebrate both his birthdays, his Heaven’s Birthday when he was called Home and his earthly birthday when he was born here. Unfortunately, I was naive, I thought that super natural Peace, Joy & can do spirit were only meant for me during that time in my life. I thought I was doing the right thing to follow Jesus by going to church, taking Bible study classes and not trying to learn how to listen to the Holy Spirit inside me. I was such an infant Christian, I didn’t even understand that the Holy Spirit inside me was my guide ( I recently got that ah ha moment). Since my husband was called Home, I have gone through many depressions and tried to grow in Faith and my relationship with God, but every time I’ve tried to make it work, it’s exploded in my life. I’ve recently been pulled out of a long depression by the Grace of God. I have rediscovered Joyce Meyer on You Tube, started connecting at church, and am trying to start moving so God can steer me. You see, I’ve been stuck for years waiting on God to show me the way to my purpose, a career (to support our family, make a difference and become a good role model for my kids) and how to raise our children right. Now I am starting to understand what my pastor meant when he said, ” When you don’t know what to do, just row the boat and God will steer you”. I have been praying for God to show me who He created me to be. I know I am so much more than a widow and I’m excited to see how He uses my experiences for His Glory.
I would love a copy of your book. I’m excited for whomever receives it because receiving a gift in Love is such a treasure.
Happy Tuesday, Susan Elizabeth
I know he is with me throughout health issues. I just need to read passages to help me to really feel his presence/help.
Loved the blog post and am looking forward to reading your book. I am 65 and am just now able to appreciate who I am as created by our great God. Yep, the messages I received growing up blocked that out for years. I am that spin off kid out of my 5 other siblings and that makes relationships with them touchy. I was recently able to pray for my sister as she is dealing with an adult son who is taking a path she does not approve of. I totally identified with her son but praying for her let me also see how my parents felt about my path. It was a healing process for me but mostly I was amazed at how God used me to comfort and strengthen my sister through prayer…never saw that coming and was hesitant but you know you can’t refuse to obey when the Holy Spirit is working on you. I am not talented for anything in particular but I am obedient so God has used me and will continue to do so. I love the journey and it is full of surprises….so I stay obedient to the Holy Spirit. God bless you for all you do, Chrystal.
Thank you!
I wonder sometimes if God hears my cries. My husband was diagnosed with vascular dementia in his sixties . I am his caregiver and it is so difficult witnessing the deterioration. Our house was in foreclosure and I had to file for bankruptcy. I continue to ask God what is up? I know God is there because I know I could not move without him. I just need to hear from Him. It sounds contradicting right!
Thank You! I love your writing and this amazing post spoke right to my heart in the season, and day I am currently walking in.
There are so many times in our 36 years of marriage that the only reason we are still together and still (somewhat) sane is that we know that God is with us. In times of trials, whether financially, emotionally, whatever, God has never let us down. Even the times we questioned whether or not He cared, deep down, we know He does care, and He has taken care – of us, our 4 children, and now our soon to be 5 grandchildren! Because I love to sing, and play guitar, I named our group at church Psalm 95, and that is what my license plate reads. It is my reminder to myself to Sing to the Lord! The Rock of our Creation! Which leads me to remember that we are reminded to “Rejoice in the Lord always” and I need that reminder some days. Thank you for your devotions and even if I don’t win the book, I plan on getting a copy for me, and for my daughter (mother of 3 daughters, with a SON! due in December. May God walk with you always!
You are incredible! And look at the lives you are touching! What a blessing!
Thank you for your openness and transparency. ❤️
Both verses you used in the devotional helped me to get thru a hard health season in my own life a couple of years ago. I went from doctor to doctor for a couple of months straight for tests but none of them could explain my symptoms and what was happening with my body. I Got to the point where I was afraid to go outside alone because I feared my body would fail me and no one will be there to help. But then these two verses came to my mind and every time I went outside I would recite them over and over and that gave my courage to not close in and try to live my life as normal. It was also a season to learn to rely and trust God more than I have to that point and in a new area of my life.
Trust is the most important thing during the hard times!
I have learned that God is with me through the pain. My life is not at all the way I pictured it and we have had lots of pain.
Deaths of loved ones suddenly, and sicknesses that led to death
Health issues of my husband that has changed our lives – strokes, high blood pressure, diabetes, open heart surgery
Change of life’s plans- we both retired early so we could enjoy retirement before any more health issues get in way. We are in our mid 50s.
But through it all I have to be grateful that my husband is still with us and was able to walk his daughter down the aisle at her wedding instead April. Hopefully he will be around to see a grandchild born sometime in future. I could have lost him 10 years ago when we discovered heart issues/ had open heart surgery.
I’m excited to be part of this study! I am looking at my future and trying to figure out what is next.
God has been a comfort to me by showing me His love for me through the body of Christ. I am SO thankful for my church home and that I can learn and grow even through tough times.
Thank you so much for sharing. I am trying my best to cling to God but I feel so broken. Feels like wave after wave is hitting me & I need to be reminded that I’m still here. My mom & older sister both have Huntingtons disease(neurological disease that slowly kills brain cells over time like Alzheimer’s & Parkinson). My younger sister & I all found out that we will get the disease if we live long enough. Symptoms start typical in a person 35-50. Earlier symptoms start, the worse they are & the earlier a person dies from complications of the disease. My dad left my mom a few years ago & she lives with my younger sister now. This has been heartbreaking for my family. I’m slipping back to my old self of not trusting becasunof what my dad has done, & the disease is depressing if I think about it. Prayers would be much appreciated. prayers of peace, strength, healing & also forgiveness. & prayers the disease doesn’t touch the children we have. Each child of a parent with HD has a 50% chance of inheriting HD. Go to HDSA.org to learn more about this disease
I would love a copy of your book. I definitely feel like I need to figure out what God wants with my life! I’m not 100percent sure I am where I should be. I’m stuck in the mundane ..
THank you for sharing your testimony. Our stories are so similar. I too was pregnant at 19 during my first year of college. I went from a girl who elf was eager to explore life as a young adult, to pregnant and uncertain where to go from there. I married a year later and tried my best to juggle college, a new baby and being now someone’s wife. I ended up dropping out of college my last year because I just couldn’t handle things. I just needed a breather and promised myself I would go back after a year. Well, Fast forward 14 years later and I’m still searching for the day when I can pick up where she left off. But the day has not come and I’ve wondered for years what my life would have been like if I had finished. If I had found the strength just to keep going but I didn’t. Thank you for sharing your story. Its giving me the courage to find “that girl” whose been redefined by the ever changing seasons of life, and allow God to use me. I plan to purchase your book soon because I know it will help!
Chrystal…
My name is Crystal. Although we spell our names differently, we have a lot in common. My father was a pastor. While my childhood and adolescence was pretty uneventful, my adult life has been filled with loss. I have told my children that it’s not what happens to us in life but how we choose to respond to what happens to us! For the most part…I believe that! But my life is once again in a place of experiencing loss and I’m tired! I appreciate your encouragement to find the strength to keep going, don’t let the loss in my life define me and allow God to continue to transform and shape my life into his image. I look forward to reading your book and identifying even more with your story.
This sounds like a good study! I am interested to see if there’s a girl left inside after all these years. She may be hiding too deep to find now. Who knows? (GOD knows I guess!!)
I became I’ll with chronic pain and herniated disk, degenerative arthritis, degenerative disk disease, spinal stenosis, bone spurs and dual curve scoliosis in the spring of 2014. I was fired from my job after my employer saw my x-ray report on a made up charge. I thought God had deserted me at first but with time I have adjusted. I have had to give up so much – working, long walks and hiking, my brand new bike, long car rides, hobbies but God is still there helping me adjust to a life of Chronic Pain (never ending).
Thank you so much for sharing. It has helped me a lot. I have just recently went thru a divorce and dealing with all that it brings. My faith in God has been renewed as I lean into Him each day.
I’m going through a lot right now, and I’m encouraged. I know at the end of it all, He will help me stand strong and be a victor. Its not easy, but I’m leaning to lean on Him daily: i have often felt deserted and unloved, feeling alone. But oh how your devotional verses, make me see that despite the lows: He is there with me, I’m engraved in the palm of His hand, I pray that this truth will take me through.
Thank you for sharing
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Beautiful devotional…thank YOU for sharing your story and giving us a reminder of the trust we can have with God!
Thank you for your story. You are an encouragement to me to move forward in every aspect of my life no matter the trial I’ve endured or the trial that will come in the future. I proclaim God the ruler of my life.
I fell asleep at the wheel spiritually last year. Hiding my own issues in order to help others became overwhelming, being the leader of a Women’s group ,It became easy to say the words of encouragement, but not believe them for myself. I am rescuing myself through this book and thank you for writing it and telling us about your journey. I’m reminded through every podcast that its courageous to go through the process of healing and that no matter what “I am okay”.
Blessings
Today you and Heather (GCM) reminded me that God sees me and that I am still breathing. Thank you.
I hàven’t had time to read emails recently due to life cicumstances so I had not see the Proverbs 31 lately until the one that featured your post. I’ve been feelings no lost, and having a difficult time with hope do I am hoping finding your post was meant to be. Thank you for sharing.
I know that God is still there, when I cry out to him about a situation that I need a clear answer too and he sends a podcast with that talks about that specific situation using my current situation. I know God is still there when a friend texts me and she had a dream about me and says she didn’t know if I had been praying about promotion or change but she just wanted to share!! He sends me confirmation as He finds that I need it!
It’s hard for me to believe God sees me at times because I get so complacent, and wrapped up in my own troubles, and become discontent. I feel that I have to take matters into my own hand because I feel that God doesn’t understand. I quickly forget what He has brought me through because it seems so impossible for things to happen for me. I don’t endulge myself in His word daily and therefore feels like I’m alone. Like I’m the only one that can’t get right. But He send encourage through others that help me.
I lost my husband to cancer in January, after two and a half years of fervent prayer. I have doubted my faith as we did not receive the miracle we had hoped for. I had hit a low point today, when I came across your site. I found your words comforting. I am sure God led me to you.
It is 1:32am. I can honestly say that for the past week since Before I purchased She’s Still There I had been really struggling in my life. This book has really been a blessing to me. The calling on my life has been there for as long as I can remember. I mean as a young girl God would show me things and I wouldn’t understand so I would wake up some times in tears and run tongo tell my grandmother what happen. I was raised by my grandmother. She knew and understood what was going on. Each night she would put what she called a prayer cover over me. I didn’t understand. But, I was smart enough to know that it was a big deal. She would say don’t tell anyone else what you told me because it’s not for everyone. I lost her the day before my 15th birthday and that day changed my life forever.. as a teen as a 20 yr old and now even in my 30 I fought with my calling because my mentor, my mother had been gone for awhile and I have been scared. I just want to say thank you for writing this book because God has strategically placed it in my life at the right time. This has been a journey but it’s my testimony. No matter where life takes us God is still in control and will help direct your path. Lord know I laughed so loud to wake my kids when I read “White Cheddar Chez it’s” Thank you Chrystal thank you for helping get over this wall. God bless you.
My pleasure Ebony. Keep climbing.
yup girl I get it.
yes girl I get it!
After having anxiety and panic attacks without medication or knowing what was wrong with me, I finally went on medication and began to heal mentally. I still struggle with it occasionally. So, now in my 50’s I have gone back to school to become a Licensed Professional Counselor. I am looking at graduating with an MS in 2019. I would never have been about to settle and focus on my studies in my younger years. My childhood was also very rough. I am so thankful to the Lord that I am able to help others and give them hope no matter what they have to go through. Right now I am a TSS at a local school. I especially love working with elementary aged children.
I have a job interview for a place that I can work at for my practicum. Please pray that I will have clear direction on where the Lord wants me to be at. I am not sure if the place I am at can support my practicum. The director is looking into it.
Thank you for your ministry. It is so helpful. Your voice is soothing and peaceful.
Chrystal .. there are so many things I want to say to you. I love the topic of this book. It has reminded me of where I am and my journey. For many years I was busy giving her away to make everybody else happy. It left me depressed, angry and having 2 nervous breakdowns in 18month, almost ended my marriage and THEN, My ears opened and my heart flooded with Gods redeeming love! He has not only brought me back like a lost sheep and loved me, but he has answered my prayers word for word as I have prayed them and restored my once atheist husband to a Man of God and my little boy is getting g a front row seat in what Jesus does for your life! I am a wife, mom, business owner, I am using all parts of that now to share the love of Christ and finding myself in the process again. Finding God again has been amazing and letting HIM restore the “HER” that was lost is more than I can imagine!
For those of you who are doubtful… walk without fear… step out in faith and “Know that he knows the plans for you” Jeremiah 29:11
Hi Chrystal! I’m also a Crystal ? I just started reading your book and it is such a blessing! Thank you for putting in all the work and sticking with your calling! God bless!!
Its not always easy to trust God after my 2nd divorce. A marriage I thought I included God from the start. Still my husband left mefor another woman. So I haveahard time praying coz I mightmiss the fine print and what did thepraying help. I dont know what i am doing wrong.
I am so sorry to hear about the hurt resulting from your second divorce. I would encourage you to seek counseling or mentoring from someone who can hold your hand during this difficult season and share love and wisdom with you during this time.
I’ve had my share of heartache, health problems, valleys and mountain top experiences in my life. If I stop and turn to God HE will be right there with me. The key I believe is we MUST call out to HIM and he will ALWAYS be right there for you, in fact He is already right there just waiting for you to call out to Him. Love Him, Trust Him, He will NEVER let you down.
I’ve gotten your emails for a while but not taken time to read. My husband fell 4 months ago breaking a vertebra in his neck and bruising his brain. It also has affected his hearing. I get aggravated because we can’t carry on a normal conversation.
It has also caused a financial hardship on me. I don’t see the end.
But I know God has a plan a a way for us. It’s just hard to see. Your devotion today helped me see I need to rely on God more and more at this time of my life.
Thank you and may God richly bless you. Jeannine Mullins
It’s so hard to take care of a husband who is hurting. I’m sorry about your hardship but God does indeed see you 🙂
So looking forward to hearing and soaking in God’s truth! Your book is alreading speaking to me.
Waking up I always start the day reading my inbox devotions. I am in a season right now that has left me feeling sad and, I, too,feel like all I do is dishes, cooking,and cleaning with tears. My mom has just passed on to glory and I have become the care giver to my dad. I love the Lord and I know He sees me, but sometimes the situation of this season is difficult. I have found much comfort in reading this and thank you for sharing and being an encouragement to me. Gods blessings!
Loved your devotion this morning. Yes I feel forgotten and unloved most of the time. But I know God does see me and in his time things will change but I do not like changes so when I learn to let go I know he will do mighty things.
Thanks for the devotion,printable which I printed, and the give away. I know I have read this verse as I was reading the book of Genesis,but now it can also be one of my verses. I know God sees us, but it is very comforting to make this verse mine – thanks. My four children are grown now, but I do especially remember feeling being unnoticed at that time and as I am thinking more about this I also felt this way sometimes in high school and college. Your devotion puts more of a proper perspective on these times. I am very glad that you were able to write this book.
Hard times, again. God got us to pack and go north, promised us a place. We are where He lead us, still no idea where ” our place” is. All our stuff in storage ( in 2 different places). Waiting…how do we proceed from here!? Wish I knew!! He seems to say ” trust Me”?! Would not be here if didn’t. What now?
One step at a time
I would love to read your book but I cannot afford to buy it 🙁
I am struggling with lots of questions right now. I’m the single mom of two teenage girls. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in July of this year. Blessedly they caught it early and I have felt God’s comfort and provision every step of the way. However, it is strange because being sick for a season changes things in a way that I never imagined. The people around you see and treat you differently. You also struggle with your own purpose and identity. You are no longer just a mom, a professional, a woman….you are that poor sick woman. You are weak. You are out of control. The person that I thought I was is no longer recognizable. The cancer is always there. I am weary.
Yes. Sickness changes you and how other people see you. Hang in there God is not finished with you yet 🙂
Thank you for reminding us God’s sees all………..our daily mundane tasks we do and our daily routine. Sometimes it is easy to think no one appreciates what you are doing. However, we know we have a loving Father that sees everything we do. He loves us and wants us to follow and chase after Him and not the things of this earth. Thank you for your devotional. May we rest in our Father’s care today and trust and follow Him always.
I find it hard to believe that God is with me because I continue to mess up daily. I feel that I should ATLEAST be able to get more things right than none. I feel that I am the only one going through things while everyone is catching on faster than I am. But then God shows up, sends a word, or a sign and I’m like WOW, I didn’t think you saw me God. I believe that I discredit and try to unqualify myself from what God has called me to do because I’m all messed up and broken but God uses broken for His masterpiece.
Thanks so much for your encouraging words. I am a mom of 6 boys. My 2 oldest have gone on their own and walked away from God, the oldest isn’t even communicating with us. The last communication I had with him was disrespectful and hurtful.Son #5 is in Heaven, he was still born 10 years ago. I struggle everyday with whys with all 3 of these boys. My other 3 are all still on school, 9th, 8th and 4th grade. My 9th grader has struggled with bullying in school for several years, yesterday he started high school, I pray daily that this year will be different. The 2 youngest are doing ok! I also struggle with my job, I work at a day care and am somewhat unhappy. I have been there 4 years but feels like forever. I was a stay at home mom before that and miss that emmensely. Everday I struggle with stress, depression and the does anyone care feeling. Your book sounds wonderful, unfortunately my husband isn’t real big on me buying books, naybe I can figure it out! Thanks again!
I’m so sorry that you are having a rough time. God sees you. Trust in Him and choose joy despite the hardship. It’s possible.
Hi Crystal! I could totally relate to your article,and I am happy to see the reminder that God sees all we are facing . I feel so inadequate, insecure, full of discontent. When I compare myself with my peers, I feel as if I cannot achieve anything meaningful. at work I feel invisible, I try to upgrade myself with getting a degree I get stuck because money is not available. My husband even tells me I am not worth marrying, he is right now facing a hard time. Imagine having cancer of the stomach, asthma, Chronic bronchitis all on one person. I sometimes ask myself ” does God think I can handle all this? Am I going to come out of all the turmoil in one piece and will I ever amount to anything?”
I hear you! I think the same thing.
thank you! I am finding comfort and encouragement in your blog and devotions. I’ve been in a valley for awhile now and my faith is growing stronger.
Thanks for sharing at Proverbs 31 about God being with us in the mundane work we do every day for our families. It encouraged me today to stay at it and do my work for the Lord:) and thanks for the opportunity to win your book!
Just reading a little bit of your journey uplifed me today when I needed it most. Too many life issues, marriage issues, health issues and teenage girl issues. Oh my! God sees me, hears me & loves me but how quickly I forget & need reminding. Thank you for reminding me! Bless all those who thirst for His word today! ?
I am so lost!! Ice been saying this for a few months…recovering from major back surgery….loosing my job….applying for disability….my friends are gone, I don’t know where…..I don’t know what to do, I feel so useless…..will God use me again? My life is not what I thought….help me please. I want to find God’s peace and hear how He’s going to use me…. I am working on it!
Chrystal-thank you so much for your encouraging words. I’m a 37 year old, wife and mother. I’ve experienced the highs and lows of life (who hasn’t, right?). I’ve had trials with pregnancies, and a “run-in” with cancer and recovery, but God has always brought me out on the other side stronger, having more trust and faith in Him, than I had before each trial began. I know that He will do this each and every time we have trials in life, if we will allow Him to do so. I currently find myself in another one of those valleys, where my seasons of life are changing and I’m trying to find my “new” place–I’m feeling a loss and lost at the same time. Your new book and the Proverbs 31 online study could not have had better timing! I look forward to reading your encouraging words and drawing close to My Lord, with His Word, as I process though this journey and embark on my new season. Thank you, again!
The Lord is so good. He is helping me through a difficult time right now. My 19 year old son just joined the Army, and the Lord continues to speak to me telling me to trust Him. He is giving me the strength and encouragement that I need and I know He will continue to do so as I continue to look to and depend upon Him daily.
I love the devotions. The Lord uses them time and time again to speak to me!
The Lord is so good. I am going through a new season in life now. My 19 year old son has recently joined the Army and has only been gone from home for a week now. The Lord continues to speak to me telling me to trust Him. I know he has a plan for my son (Jeremiah 29:11) and for me as well. I continue to look to the Lord daily for the strength and peace I need. He is faithful and will see His plan through.
I love the devotions and the Lord uses them to speak to me just when I need it.
Dearest Chrystal,
Thank you for your sweet and inspiring blog today. I find I’m like you looking at tasks and getting lost. In the midst of working full-time, going to graduate school full-time and raising 3 beautiful tweens and teens, it’s easy to lose sight of what my purpose it. God bless.
You have inspired me that I can make it with faith no matter what I go thru. My biggest concern is my only daughters well being, emotionally and financially. She is not happy. I have prayed and prayed for her. Please Lord, continue helping me in giving her strength. She’s 26 years old. I am 63 and at times I feel very tired as I’m aging. But you, have given me hope, that there is hope for her and I with prayer. Thank you so much. I will continue visiting your website.
Thank you for reminding me that God always sees me. As a wife and mother, it is very easy to get overwhelmed with the every day, mundane things in life.
God has been my comfort for many years–without Him I would be lost.
I’m so excited about this study and about connecting with you. After 17 years of marriage, my marriage ended abruptly when I found my former spouse in adultery. When confronted with it, he divorced me to be with her. I had already lost so much of myself from being the primary bread winner, full time employee, and full time wife and mom to 3 kids and 11 foster kids. I had poured myself into everything I did and suddenly found my life forever altered. I have had a year to begin to recover and I have found God more near and dear than I ever knew was possible even though I have been a Christian for many years. I have moved to a new home, and have been trying to figure out how God wants to put my life back together. Your study and book is SOOOOOOOOO timely! I’m his messy masterpiece and I KNOW God has something big for me to do and to become, just not sure what it is. Thanks for sharing your journey in an effort to help us on our journey!
Thank you for your message. I often struggle with feeling unseen. I can relate to the message about feeling unseen during the mundane. I feel like I get in ruts because I have laundry to do, cleaning the house, or make dinner, and forget to see these as opportunities for worship.
Thank you for allowing God to use you in such a way that you bless others with your words of encouragement and support by reminding us to keep our eyes on Him, even through times of suffering. I enjoy your messages and am inspired to continue growing my relationship with our Heavenly Father. Thank you!
I believe God led me to your website and to join your study with your new book. I am in a challenging time or season of y life…some unavoidable with health and some self-inflicted. I need guidance more than ever! I feel a bit disheartened that I’m still struggling to be the Christian I want to be despite being 47. Thank you for sharing your wisdom and your struggles to encourage a sister in Christ!
I think, for the most part. I do well trying to trust God & not worry about the struggles & difficulties my family & I are currently facing. However, there are times when I get completely overwhelmed w/ disappointment & disgust, bc I have been reading my devotions & Bible every morning before doing anything else & not letting anything interrupt for over a yr now & things just keep getting worse rather than better, in many different aspects. During those times, I feel like all the work that I have done & am continuing to do to change the person I’d become is pointless & a waste. And, on top of that, the fact that knowing the effort I put into trying to be a more godly person is rarely acknowledged, appreciated, or “rewarded” by my family I am surrounded by on a daily basis makes me feel even more like it’s pointless & a waste. It makes it so much more difficult to say determined to continuing to do it all again the next day, every day.
I am listening to your new study but would love a copy of your book to go along with it!!
I have been learning to lean heavily into God lately. To totally depend on him for everything and to talk with him constantly about everything. God wants us to constantly rely on him alone. When you say this is for “a season” I think you are right. Sometimes I am in the valley and sometimes on top of the hill. God will never leave me or forsake me and for this I am truly grateful! Keep looking up and keep praying to the God who cares.
I have been that girl with tears streaming, on a day when I should be thankful for all Gods provision, and yet lost in my own self doubt of my worth in this world. So thankful for the daily devotions and reading Gods word that allow me to gain a better perspective and set my mind on Him and trust in His plan for my life.
Your devotions are a blessing to me.
I’m a stay at home mom, so I feel very lost in my every day life. I struggle with feeling content in my life and feeling God completing my life. I feel this book will help me figure this out along with God.
I am a Christian “newbie”….Trying to find my way in this world with Christ newly in my heart….It is like belong to a club, and while I am so grateful to have been allowed to join, I am only on page three of the “rule book”, and feeling like I have soooo much catch-up work to do that it feels overwhelming…One day at a time, I guess, and if Jesus is willing to lead me, then I am more than willing to follow….
Yes. One day at a time. And way more important then the “rulebook” is the wonderful RELATIONSHIP we can have with him.
This is a very timely program. I have been experiencing some very hard emotional hits these past couple months and i have reached the point, just as an elastic band that has reached it’s full stretching point, to burst! I am so tired and hurting and wondering whether this is my destiny, to always feel so hurt and depressed and sad…but then I saw inn my email this Study Program and immediately feel a sense of hope. just the contents in the email alone (about the woman washing the dishes and staring off in the distance, lost in thought) caught my attention as i could relate 100% to that scenario. I am looking forward to embarking on the “Worthy” Journey so that i can find back myself and rekindle the spark that once existed brightly within me. I thank God for raising up Mrs. Hurst and all the other wonderful ladies who put this journey together. You all have no idea what it is doing for me. Praise be to God!
I really enjoyed your story. I always want to learn more.
Thank you Chrystal for this reminder. I am working on learning how to be a good steward of the blessings God has given me and praying that He shows me the specific purpose He created me for.
Thank you for your devotional. I can relate to that also. I look forward to your book and hope to win your autographed copy.
Thank you.
God has helped me through some scary times and frustrating times. Battling lupus/ fibro. My life has been turned upside down. Trying to not loose faith and know that there can be healing in suffering. It has been a long road. I ask for his grace daily.
Hi Chrystal~
Your post was in my email at just the right time as I came home today from a breast biopsy after two questionable mammograms and I had no idea how painful the biopsy would be. Apparently, they hit a nerve. To be honest, they were supposed to take two biopsies but I was so upset and in so much pain, I opted out of the second biopsy. The doc and nurses were very supportive but I felt like such failure. And I felt so alone because I wanted to be strong in front of these women I didn’t know and for the sake of all women, but I couldn’t stop crying. I know part of it is just the vulnerability you feel in such a procedure and fear of the outcome. Still, when I read your post, I was reminded, God is with me and He would NEVER call me a failure because I’m His beloved!
I would be so excited to win a copy of the book!!! I’ve enjoyed the study so greatly and I’m very fortunate to be experiencing this with all of you.
Much love – Angel
I’ve loved the study and am so excited and fortunate to be experiencing this with all of you.
Thank you for your wonderful content. It is truly uplifting! We have to have strong faith in our Father as we go through the ups and downs of life. The Bible teaches us that there will be struggles and we must go out and share our struggles. Sharing ours always helps someone else. Thankyou.
It’s always wonderful to realize that Jesus sees me!
This really hit home for me today. Thus study is much needed for the season of life I’m currently in. Thank you!
After being in the mission field for 28 years and being at the forefront of ministry, it is not very easy to be back home and continue with the same work on the homefront. It is a situation in which even though you are doing the work you feel undervalued and invisible because it is no more foreign mission. In my times of discouragement I cry out to God and remind myself that my call to the work is from Him.
He sees you and, yes, the work is from him. Continue to serve you and know that you’re work is not in vain.
I’m going through a rough spot in my journey right now,walking through My days numb,not feeling anything! The sad part is I have been doing this for a while and just noticed.I went to church tonight and asked my Bible study Leader to pray for Me.My marriage is over unless God intervenes and some other things.I know God is faithful and just and true but its a hard journey right now.
I’m so sorry to hear about the difficulty in your marriage. Praying for you tonight.
I have loved this even and enjoyed the study. It’s been beautiful and enlightening. Thank you so much for sharing so much with everyone.
Great article. Have been going through a tough season and it’s been amazing what God has done to get me through this. Would love to do this study; can’t afford the book right now.
This has really touched me. HE does notice me! This really spoke to my heart. God Bless
That is so beautiful I needed to read that this morning! Then when I read the title of your book it brought tears to my eyes. I grew up abused as a child sexually I always felt down and like a throw away I wanted to feel like a princess but the princess was stripped away by the trauma and abuse. No one in my family wanted anything to do with me I carried the shame and guilt of what happened and my mother told anyone that would listen which made me feel violated because it happened to me it was my secret I wanted no one to know. As I got older I always wanted to feel beautiful that little girl inside wanted to wear princess dress be loved on by her father in a fatherly manner i suffered many years of pain and turmoil seeking love and acceptance in all the wrong places. I never knew beauty came from within the enemy sold me the lie that I must work on the outside to be someone else and I did for many years I straightened my hair, I starved myself to a size 0 and I even danced in the secular world which brought me attention but not the attention I wanted. After two failed marriages and three kids later I got pregnant with my daughter from the start I was going to give her up till the Lord brought a couple into my life that loved Jesus Christ so much that they wanted to love me and my children. At first I resisted and didnt understand no one not even my parents had just loved me for me I was had to give or do something in return and God knew this is what would bring me to Christ Jesus its the Love he knows us all. And it did Jesus broke the shackles of shame and guilt and Gave me beauty for all my ashes scars for my wounds. I am still going through the healing process there are seasons in my life that have been painful dealing with deep wounds but I wouldnt trade it to go back any day. What Jesus Christ has giving me and Lavished me with his unfailing love, his faithfulness to carry me, and he is the only promise keeper, we may fail as humans but God never does. One of my Favorite verses Luke 27:18 from the Message
God can do what men can’t amen. And I have experienced this first hand because John 8:36 say Whomever the son sets free is free indeed. Amen thank you Jesus when I thought I was a lost cause you rescued me Like a wounded deer you picked me carried me when I wouldnt walk and know I am leaping up mountain sides. Jesus gave me Hope when I had none left thank you. If anyone is wondering what God can do he can do all things I know this have experienced it and seen it. Surrender is all I can say the Holy one that is well and able to do exceedingly more than you could ever imagine or expect. All the honor and Glory and Praise is yours Jesus.
Thank you so much for sharing your story 😉
I appreciate you sharing your testimony.
Hello Crystal. Thank you for the beautiful reminder of Gen 16:13 the God who sees. I have known the Lord since I was a young woman but suffered much trauma from childhood up. I KNOW the God of all comfort although I am old now I struggle in my marriage. My husband battles with depression and PTSD so I often am fighting to keep my joy. I know God sees. I would love to read your book. God bless you.
Hello Crystal. Thank you for the beautiful reminder of Gen 16:13 the God who sees. I have known the Lord since I was a young woman but suffered much trauma from childhood up. I KNOW the God of all comfort although I am old Still standing for my spouse who battles with depression/ptsd. The joy of the Lord is my strength because I know God sees. I would love to read your book. God bless you.
If I only could remember this every moment of my journey… he sees all I do and it matters. My attitude actions would be so different.
I think among the recent ones, when my relationship ended at the end of last year I can truly say that God was the only Comforter and Healer for me during that period of healing and recovering and figuring out life again in a different/single way. Somehow all of my friends fled (who knows for what reason) but the only support I received was from God- so to Him is the only credit.
I know this is an older post but as I wake and look for encouragement and help at 3:00 in the morning going through a difficult time afraid of the results I read your story and am trying to find comfort in that God I’d always with me .I am going through a very difficult time and yes am afraid and have so many mix emotions on my life and the life of my family . Wondering God why so much pain how did I get here how did my family get her if you get this please pray for me and my family I would love to have your book but mostly your prayers .Trying to find comfort
Thank you for reminding all of us that God sees us, no matter what season that we may find ourselves in we have a Father that watches over his children. I would love to have a copy of your book to read and share with others to remind them that we serve a God who sees us.
Grandmother to two boys – I was reading through the devotional today and it says exactly how I feel. Lost – unseen – no value – just lost – lost my joy – lost myself and I do not know how to find me. Also married to someone that I love but negative. No idea how to find me and what God wants for me. Your words said it perfectly – Lost in the middle of my own life.